Calm before the storm.

Lately things haven’t been so easy. My grandfather is sick and doesn’t have a lot of time left. I have come to terms with it and am dealing with that ok. The issue is my mom, she isn’t excepting it really well. She is almost making it worse in a lot of ways. She keeps freaking out and making him worry about her. I understand that this is hard for her but I just feel that she needs to embrace what she is feeling. she needs to face it and stop denying that it’s going to happen. She has been seeing a therapists since my Dad left 14 years ago and in my opinion this therapist hasn’t helped her even a little bit. Now she wants my grandfather to go see her and my brother is livid about that idea. Of course my mom will do what she pleases, so right now I’m just waiting. Waiting for it all to hit the fan…..

Welcome to my world…..

I don’t know what made me decide to start this blog. I guess I just wanted to have an outlet. Whether people read it or not doesn’t really matter. I just need a place to vent, to express, to be creative with my words. I feel as if all 26 years of my life have just passed by with not so much to be proud of, but that changes today. No it won’t be easy or comfortable. I need to start living. I need to start being who I have always wanted to be. No better time then the present I suppose.